Start with something we all do. Someone asks you to tell them about yourself, and you answer. Not with a list, and not with a recital of remembered moments checked one against the next. You answer with a story. You came from somewhere; something happened — a move, a loss, a person, a piece of luck — and it changed you, and that is how you came to be the person answering. You give the events a shape: a beginning, a middle, and a part still unfinished.
We do it at a funeral, where a life is gathered into a story and given back to the room. We do it on a first date, in a job interview, and alone at the end of a hard day. When we want to say who someone is, we do not describe their cells or list their memories. We tell their story.
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This is the third episode of The Self Across Time. Last time we examined what many have regarded as the most compelling answer to what holds a person together across the years: that you simply are your remembered consciousness — a connected series of memories running back, one to the next, from the child in the photograph to you. And that answer ran into three difficulties. It loses connections in every ordinary life, so by its own rule the old man is not the boy he cannot remember being. It is circular, because you cannot say which memories are genuinely yours without already knowing who you are. And the modern repair rescues it only by replacing the single, solid self with a loose network of overlapping connections, then leaving open whether anyone underlies that network at all. So tonight we take up a different answer — one that does not tie the self to a connected series at all.
The thought we take up runs underneath the ordinary act of telling your story. What if telling a story is not merely how we describe a self, but what a self is — not a record kept by memory, and not a series of connections that keeps breaking, but a story a person authors, and goes on authoring, for as long as they live? Last week's account needed every connection to hold. A story does not. A story can hold together across a gap in the record — it can include a childhood no one remembers.
That is tonight: the narrative account of the self, its considerable power, and then the philosopher who looked at the whole idea and said that some of us are not telling a story at all — and are none the worse for it.
Let us be clear about why this is a genuine change and not merely a gentler word for the same thing.
Last week's account was, in effect, a connected series. You are joined to the child in the photograph by memory — each remembered moment connecting to the next, all the way back. The trouble with such a series follows from what it is. A connected series holds only if each connection holds. Remove one in the middle — and every long life removes many; no one can reach the morning they were two years old — and the series is broken at that point. It cannot carry a person across a stretch where the connections are gone. That was the difficulty we reached last week: the thing meant to hold the self together fails exactly where memory fails, and memory fails constantly.
A story works the other way, because it is a different kind of thing.
A story is not held together by each part connecting to the next. It is held together by its overall shape — by the parts meaning something in the light of the whole. Consider any story you know well. It has gaps throughout. A novel skips ten years between chapters; a film cuts from the wedding to the grandchildren. We do not experience the gap as a break, and we do not think the story stops being one story across the cut. The reason is that what makes it one story was never that every moment touches the next. It is that the moments belong to a single unfolding shape — a beginning that set things in motion, a middle in which they turned, an end they were moving toward. A story can hold together across a gap that a connected series cannot, because a story was never held together moment by moment in the first place.
Here is where that matters for our problem. The four-year-old in the photograph — the one you cannot reach, the one last week's account could not connect you to — is no difficulty for a story. She is the opening. She is the first chapter. You do not have to remember being her in order to include her in your story; you include her the way a novel includes its first chapter, as the place the whole thing began. Other people supply her to you — your parents describe what you were like, and you take it in. The photograph goes in too. She is yours not because an unbroken line of memory runs back to her, but because she is where your story begins, and you are still telling it.
That accounts for a great deal. It explains how a person can own events they do not remember: told that you nearly drowned at three, you call it something that happened to me, though you recall none of it, because it belongs to your story. It explains how a single event can change its meaning years later — a lost job becomes, in the retelling, the thing that set a person free: the same event, a different place in the account, a different meaning. The memory account can do none of this. It runs from one connection to the next and breaks where the connections run out. The story gathers all of it into one shape, and keeps the parts that memory lost.
So the idea before us tonight is not a small adjustment to last week. It is a different account of what a person is. Not a thing that has a past it records. Not a sequence of remembered moments. A story — one a person is telling, and being told, and living, at the same time.
And now the real question, the one that decides whether this is philosophy or merely an agreeable way of talking. When we say a life is a story, are we only describing how it feels — a figure of speech laid over a self that is really something else underneath? Or is the story not a description of the self at all, but the self itself — is being a self simply a matter of having a story underway? Some serious philosophers hold the strong version: that there is no self underneath the story for the story to be about, because telling the story is what produces the self. Let us take that in its strongest form.
There are two thinkers worth bringing in here, and between them they build the strong version of this idea — the version on which the story is not laid over the self but is the self.
Begin with the philosopher Marya Schechtman, in her nineteen ninety-six book The Constitution of Selves. She draws a distinction that clears up half the confusion in this subject. There are, she argues, two different questions hiding under the single heading of personal identity, and they are constantly run together. One is the puzzle we have been working on: what makes the person here now the very same person as the child years ago — the question of sameness across time. The other is the question we are actually asking when we ask who someone is. Not whether this is numerically the same item as before, but what this person is like — which experiences, actions, and traits are genuinely theirs, expressions of who they are, rather than things that merely happened near them. Call it the question of what is truly one's own.
Her answer to that second question is the narrative view at full strength. What makes an experience, an action, or a trait genuinely yours — part of you, rather than something you merely passed through — is that it is woven into the story you tell of your own life. A person does not arrive as a finished self that then accumulates a history. A person constitutes themselves as a self by organising their experience into a narrative — by making it hold together as one unfolding life with themselves as its subject. On this view, having an identity is not something one passively has, like a serial number. It is something one does. One authors it. A person, in the full sense, is a being who sustains an ongoing autobiographical story and lives from within it.
See how much that explains — more than the memory account could. Take responsibility — moral ownership across time. Why is a person answerable for something done twenty years ago, something half-forgotten? Not because a clean line of memory runs back to it, but because it belongs to the story — it is an episode in the life one is accountable for, something the central character did, and one cannot disown it without falsifying one's own account. The deed is yours because it is part of the story that is you. The memory account could not reach that deed once the memory had faded; the story holds it regardless, the way a novel holds its second chapter even when the reader has reached the ninth.
The second voice enlarges the claim. Alasdair MacIntyre, in his nineteen eighty-one book After Virtue, puts it in a line worth quoting: man is, he writes, essentially a story-telling animal. He does not mean that we enjoy telling stories. He means something stronger — that a human life is the kind of thing that can only be understood as a story, and a human being the kind of thing that must live one. Take a single action and try to make sense of it on its own. A man is digging in a garden. What is he doing? One cannot answer until one knows the story he is part of — taking exercise, preparing for winter, pleasing his wife, avoiding his children. The same movement of the arm means quite different things depending on the story it belongs to. We understand a person's present only by its place in a longer account running from somewhere to somewhere.
And so, MacIntyre argues, the unity of a single human life is the unity of a story — a single quest, with a beginning that set it going and an end it is moving toward. He puts it as sharply as it can be put: one can answer the question "what am I to do?" only if one can first answer the question "of what story do I find myself a part?" A life is intelligible — to the person living it, and to anyone else — as a narrative in which one is at once the central character and, gradually, the author. To be a self is to hold that story together and to be answerable for it as one whole thing. This idea — that a life has the shape of a story with a point it is moving toward — returns later in this series, and with greater weight, when we ask what a life is for. Tonight it is enough to see it stated in full.
Put the two together and the result is a powerful account, and it earns that standing before anyone raises an objection. It answers the question the memory account could not — how a person can be one person across gaps they cannot remember — because a story holds together across its gaps by its shape, not by a series of connections. It explains why we are answerable for our past, and why a life can be redeemed or ruined by how its later chapters recast the earlier ones. And it matches how reflective people actually live. We do not experience a life as a heap of disconnected days. We experience it as moving somewhere — as a story we are in the middle of, with a past that explains us and a future we are working toward. That is not a decoration on the self. On this view it is the self doing the one thing that makes it a self at all: telling itself into a single life.
So that is the answer at its best, the version its defenders would endorse. You are not a record kept by memory, and not a series of connections that keeps breaking. You are the author of your own story, and being a self is simply keeping that story going.
It is an appealing account, and much of it is true. So we now do the honest thing and ask where the cost lies.
Here is the cost, and it sits inside the very thing that made the view attractive. A story has a shape. But a shape is something a person gives. And a life, lived forward, one day at a time, mostly does not arrive with one.
Try this with your own life, because it is the quickest way to see it. Call up the story you tell about yourself — the short version, the one you would give if someone asked how you ended up where you are. It has a shape. There is usually a turning point, the hard stretch that "made you who you are," the bad decision that turned out for the best. It holds together. It has a point.
Now look for the parts that do not fit it. They are there. The years that were merely years — no development, no lesson, nothing that points anywhere; you were simply alive, and then they were over. The version of you that contradicts the story — the stretch when you were someone you would rather not include, who does not lead to the present you, whom the story has to work around. The piece of pure luck the story has turned into something you earned. Consider what your own telling does with all of it. It does not exactly lie. It selects. It keeps the episodes that carry the shape and lets the rest fade. It reads the ending back into the beginning, so that the setback you did not understand at the time becomes, in the retelling, the thing that set you free. At the time it was simply a bad year. The meaning arrived later, from you, looking back.
So put the hard question the narrative view has to face. That unity you feel — the sense that your life is one coherent story going somewhere — is it something you found, that was really there in the events? Or something you made, laid over a stretch of days that did not, in fact, come with a plot? If a story is held together by its shape, and the teller supplies the shape, then the very thing that let the story cover the gaps the memory account could not — its power to bind loose episodes into one meaningful whole — is also its weakness. A connected series at least cannot join connections that are not there. A story can join anything to anything. It can give a shapeless run of years a beginning, a middle, and a moral, and hand it back so smoothly that one would swear it was discovered rather than composed.
And this is not last week's problem returning. Last week's worry was that the memories might be missing or false — a problem about whether the parts are true. This is a different worry, and in a way a worse one, because it survives even if every memory in the story is accurate. One can have all the facts right and still impose on them a shape that is not there — still tell a story true in its parts but false as a whole, because the whole has a unity the parts never had until one supplied it. The careful, honest narrator faces this as much as the careless one. Getting the events right does not settle whether the story — the shape, the meaning, the through-line — was found in the life or laid onto it.
Now, the defender has a genuine reply here, and it is worth stating, because this worry does not by itself defeat the view. Of course the self is partly made, the defender says; that was the point from the start. Constituting oneself was always an act, not a discovery; no one was promised that the unity is sitting in the events like a fact to be read off. A self is an achievement, and like any achievement it is something one does, under constraints — one cannot compose a story out of nothing, it must answer to what actually happened, and a story too far from the facts stops being one's own and becomes a delusion. So yes, it is made. That is not the objection you take it to be. That is the view.
Fair enough. If the only worry were that the self is partly authored rather than simply found, the narrative view could accept it and remain standing — it would simply mean that being a self is a kind of work, done well or badly. But a second challenge is waiting, and it does not ask whether one is authoring a life well or badly. It asks something the whole view assumed and never checked: whether one is authoring a life at all.
The challenge comes from a philosopher named Galen Strawson, in a two thousand and four essay whose title does not hedge: "Against Narrativity," published in the journal Ratio. His first move is to notice something the whole narrative picture assumed and never once examined — that everyone experiences their own life the way its defenders do.
Strawson says there are, roughly, two ways of being in time, two temperaments, and people sit somewhere across them. Some people are what he calls Diachronic. If you are Diachronic, you naturally feel the self that is here now as something that was present in the distant past and will be present in the distant future — one continuous thing, extended along the whole of your life, present at every point of it. Recalling something that happened to you at seven, you feel, from the inside, that that was me, the very person sitting here; it happened to me. The past self and the present self are felt as one item with a history. For such a person the narrative picture is an exact fit, because they already live as the single central character of one long account.
But some people, Strawson says, are not like that at all. He calls them Episodic. If you are Episodic, you do not experience the self that is thinking now as something extending far into the past and the future. You are entirely a self in the present — fully here, fully a person — but you do not feel that present self to be the same persisting thing that was there decades ago or will be there decades on. You know the facts perfectly well. You know the child in the photograph grew into you; you can give the dates. But you do not relate to that child as the one now looking out of your eyes. They are more like an earlier person about whom you happen to know a great deal. You live forward, take things much as they come, and do not gather them into one continuous story with yourself as its through-line.
And Strawson's point — the sharp one — is that he is describing himself. He is not reporting a defect. He is a working philosopher, reflective by profession, and he states plainly that he is Episodic: that he does not experience his life as a narrative, has little interest in his own biography, and is, so far as he can tell, none the worse for it. He is the standing example of his own case, and he points to others — writers, thinkers, ordinary people — who say the same when they are actually asked.
Strawson then takes the two claims we heard a few minutes ago and separates them, addressing each in turn.
The first claim was descriptive: that people experience their lives as stories. Strawson replies that many of us do not, and that one thought otherwise only by being a narrator generalising from oneself. Telling one's life as a single unfolding account is a real and common way to be. It is not the human condition. It is a temperament, more common in some people than in others, and the Episodic person is not failing to do something everyone does. They are simply built another way.
The second claim was the significant one, the one that made the view matter: that a rich narrative grip on one's life is essential to living well, to being a full person — MacIntyre's claim that to be a self at all is to hold one's life together as one story for which one is answerable. Here Strawson goes furthest, because he does not merely say the claim is false; he says it can be harmful. The demand to make one's life into a good story is an invitation to falsify it. Stories require shape, and shape requires editing; the narrative impulse smooths, tidies, drops the parts that do not fit and enlarges the parts that do — exactly the imposition we watched a moment ago. The diligent self-narrator can become the curator of a flattering fiction, more attached to the shape of the tale than to the truth of the days. The Episodic person, by contrast, taking each thing as it comes and not forcing it into a plot, may be closer to the truth of their own life, and freer within it. Some of the most thoughtful, generous, and clear-sighted people, Strawson argues, are precisely the ones not telling themselves a grand story. Living well, on his account, does not require a narrative. It may even go better without one.
One can feel the narrative defender wanting to reply, and there is a reply of a kind: that perhaps even the Episodic person has a story running beneath the surface, one they rely on without noticing every time they keep a promise or finish a sentence begun the day before — that perhaps Strawson is more of a narrator than he admits. It is a fair reply, and the argument does not settle it. But it cannot be pushed too far without turning into a trick. If "having a narrative" is stretched until even the person who sincerely denies having one secretly has one, then the claim no longer says anything. It can no longer be tested, because nothing could count against it. And a self one can keep only by making it impossible to lack is not the robust, life-shaping thing the view promised. So Strawson remains standing. The plain fact he sets down cannot be dismissed: here is a reflective person, living a full and decent life, who tells you to your face that he is not narrating it — and one has no good ground to call him a liar or a lesser self.
So this is where the episode leaves us — and it is not where either side wanted to leave you.
You half-believed the obvious thing coming in — that your life is a story, your story, the one you would tell if someone asked. And it is still standing when you leave, but no longer obvious. It is one real way to be a self, and a powerful one. It does what the memory account could not: it carries the child you cannot remember, it makes you answerable for a past that has faded, it gathers loose years into one shape that means something. For most reflective people it is not a figure of speech — it is how a life is actually held together. None of that was overturned tonight. If you are a narrator, you are not deceiving yourself that there is something there. There is.
But two things were called into doubt tonight, and neither doubt can be set aside.
The first comes from inside your own telling. The shape that makes your life one story — the turning point, the through-line, the meaning running from the bad year to the good one — at least some of that you supplied. You read the ending back into the beginning. You kept the episodes that carried the plot and let the rest fade. So you cannot fully tell, from the inside, where the unity of your life was found and where it was made — and getting every fact right does not settle it, because the shape was never one of the facts. It was your contribution.
The second comes from outside it altogether, and it is the harder one, because it is a person. Somewhere there is someone — Strawson says he is one of them — who is fully a self, lives a deep and decent life, and simply is not telling the story. Does not experience the years as one continuous account, does not feel the child in the photograph to be the one now looking out, takes the days as they come. And one has no good ground to say he lacks a self, or is deceiving himself, or is living worse than anyone else. Which means the strong version of the view — that to be a self at all is to hold one's life together as one story — claimed more than it is entitled to. It described a temperament and called it the human condition.
Here are the two conclusions I could hand you now, and why you get neither. The first is the reassuring one: that since you are the author, you should take charge, tell a good and truthful story, and the self is secure. I cannot give you that, because the person not telling a story is still standing there, whole, and his existence shows that authorship was never the price of a self. The second conclusion is the fashionable one, going the other way: that it is all a comforting fiction, so drop the story and live in the present. I cannot give you that either, because the narrative self is genuinely how most people hold a life together, it really does carry what the memory account dropped, and "live in the present" is itself a story about how to live — a practice I would be recommending to you, and I am not here to recommend one. There is no exercise to take home tonight. Neither conclusion is available, and that is the point.
Three weeks in, and each has cost something. Two weeks ago you lost the right to be certain of any single memory. Last week, the certainty that you knew what holds the self together — the strongest account survived only by becoming thinner than the self it defended. Tonight you have watched the most humane answer to the question of what you are — that you are the story you author — turn out to be real, and powerful, and not the whole truth about everyone, and not even something you can fully separate from your own additions. You may keep the story. What you do not keep is the certainty that being a self simply is having one. And notice where every answer has lived. Memory, last week. Story, tonight. Both lie on one side of a person — the inside, the mental side: the remembering, the telling, the meaning. For three weeks we have taken it for granted that whatever you are, you are some arrangement of mind, and argued only about which arrangement. Next time a philosopher rejects that outright — that was the mistake from the start, he says: you are not your memories, not your story, not your mind at all. You are an animal, a living body that was here before the remembering began and may still be here after it stops, and the whole search for the self in the mind has been looking in the wrong place.
For now, take it back to your own life. Tell yourself your story tonight, the short version, the way you would tell a stranger. And as you do, put the two questions you could not put this morning. How much of this shape did I find, and how much did I add? And the harder one: if I met someone who genuinely was not telling any of it — no plot, no through-line, just a life lived straight ahead — would I really be looking at less of a person than myself? The easy answer to each is the one that has just become unavailable.
Thanks for listening. I'll see you next time.